“It’s in his/her nature” is one expression that you might have encountered pretty often. I thought about what does it mean to accept my own nature when I started to paint myself for this project. In the springtime the magnolia tree is blooming and I must say that I always look in awe at its beauty. I felt inspired to do a bodypainting after multiple escapes in nature.
My nature is something deeply embedded in me. It is like a sort of gem which is so profoundly hidden in the undergrounds of my soul that I can be oblivious to its presence. I think that the closest that we ever get to our nature is when we know who we are and what we want. When we are children we know this. But society and parents and schools teach us otherwise: be more like this, do that in order to get the other, what you want does not make sense therefore follow me etc. A whole array of reasons why what you are must be molded and re-shaped are introduced to you.
When you become an adult the gems that you have deep inside are lurking in the shadows. They are screaming to come out to light, to be gleaming and to honor you. My nature is what I am meant to be since my birth, a divine purpose of my existence, a primordial method of doing the things my way. What do I like? Who do I want to be? What do I want to do?
In relationships we can lose ourselves quite easily. Focused on pleasing the other or to change him/her, we lose ourselves. At one point you realize that you wasted so much energy trying to be something that you are not. This is one of the reasons why some people all of a sudden decide to go separate ways or to change course in a career: their nature is calling them. You can’t pretend for years to be someone if your inner self is crying out for freedom, creativity, humour etc. Our nature is something that calls for our truest version of ourselves. We can’t trade this for anything else, not even for a relationship or for financial benefits. Between the other and ourselves we will always choose us. It is not selfish, it is necessary. Choosing your authentic self brings you closer to your nature.
When I accept my nature I accept myself full heartedly. Even if I might look weird or unacceptable in the eyes of the others. Losing myself in order to please the world is a price too high to pay. It is actually not worth it.
Life is a journey and we can have the honour to tackle it together with someone. But only if that aligns with who we are at our core. Because when you least expect it….your nature will call you. And like a helpless sailor on the sea, this siren song will always lure you in, towards your hidden diamond: your truest self. You can’t escape from it. It will call you.
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