TEREZUM

Here we are, at the brink of ending 2023. And I see posts of people who say that this was their best year. When it was not. Because I happened to see their reality. I find it funny, sad and definetely up for debate why people continue to lie to themselves so well and post it proudly on social media for a couple of likes. I begin to wonder. What makes accepting a crappy reality so difficult? Is it because it would force us to look deep within and see how we did not rise to a higher standard? Is it because we are complacent and unwilling to change so bathing in illusion feels better , although it is not? Does it hurt less to sit in a lie rather than facing the reality of the necessity to change as a person?

When I happen to scroll back and forth on social media everyone seems to be doing something all the time. There is this feeling of utter discomfort seeing how some seem to be way ahead of you in terms of popularity, likes, audience. But there is also the other side of the spectrum: those who rarely post. Those that , when they post, it is remarkable. In excellence or in mediocrity. In a way I wonder if they are making a better use of their time than those who are consumed by the algorythm , pressed into always creating content and the illusion of happines while doing it.

Have you ever tried to search the social profiles of those who died? All of their pictures are just left there, on an account that serves no other purpose than that of showing how transient life is.

I decided to also make a break from posting content on my painting, bodypainting and doing handmade stuff accounts. It does not feel like I am missing something, although if I were to sell my artworks a long break would have implied some losses. I have always found it tough to create and film and post my content in the same time. It is tedious and somehow it ruins the creative process. I try to imagine Michelangelo trying to finish his work and also capture nice shots for a future reel….

I was listening to Huberman Lab today and there was a talk about how little attention span the human individual has today. One minute we are with the eyes gazing at the screen at work. One minute we look at our phone. The other minute someone calls or we want to check if we got any likes. Oh oopsy another e-mail. To achieve 60 minutes of pure unadulterated focus on one single task sounds like old age history. I pause while I am listening to this. He is right. Technology can be intrusive and can definetely impair the focus. I have been there. It can also create a feeling of always feeling that you are behind. Today if you meet someone and you tell them that you have no Facebook, no Instagram, no Youtube shorts…you look like the odd man out. What is wrong with society now that a virtual presence is more important than the person standing right in front of you, willing to let himself/herself be discovered? It has also happened to me to see that virtual connections are more important for some people than real connections: people hanging on to remaining friends with individuals from the past and that gesture affecting them in real life has no impact on their attitude. They prefer the past rather than the present moment. Not to mention the problems of partners giving likes to sexy strangers, as if those strangers will come and rub your dirty back when you take a shower. I wonder if it is just me or the whole idea of human interaction is upside down and people are going crazy because social media gives you the illusion that there are a ton of people out there with whom you can give it a shot. Over and over again, which makes discarding a partner so much easier. It scares me and it makes me sad. Because a genuine connection requires a clear understand ing of the bullshit of social media and the severe impairment on your brain if you use it so much.

The sheeps grazing the grass have no such issues and menial drama. They just are. They do not try to justify their existence. They do not try to be somehow better than the other sheeps. The only creature constantly trying to justify their existence is the human. There will always be someone better, smarter, cooler, richer, wiser, dumber, sexier than you and me. But the focus should never be on that, although the school system brainwashes us into believing that we are in a constant competition. The idea of mental health must be to just be…to just detach and live a life that makes you feel good, regardless if you post about it. I am prone to believe as days pass by that those who live the fullest lives have no time to post about them.